Jealousy

"competent and self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything. Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity." Robert Heinlein

I try so hard not to be THAT person who is always green with envy. I want to believe I am a self-confident person and that jealousy is below me. But unfortunately for me I do tend to turn into the green monster about... ehh I would say once a week. Now do not get me wrong, I LOVE my life, I have a wonderful husband a beautiful home with a puppy and a bunny rabbit whom I adore. I have a great family and although my career life could use a little tweaking, I have the ability to laugh it off and look to the future of things to come. The absolute one thing that always brings the monster out in me is woman who are pg (pregnant, better learn the lingo), have babies/children. The one thing I want in life and have not be able to succeed in is being a mother and making my husband a father. Please don't get me wrong, I don't release the green monster for EVERYONE who has children or is pg, just a select few, but I do always have that little twinge of jealousy whenever I hear of another pregnant woman or see a family toting around a bundle of joy.
I guess the reason for my quote today is a realization to myself that I am insecure. I have infertility. There I said it.
My wish for today is to learn to tame the green monster and no longer be insecure about infertility.