Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Blessed
Well no words of wisdom today. I couldnt find the perfect quote to help me express my feelings. Blessed is the best word to describe my life at this moment in time. I dont know what I would do without my Ladies, and you know who you are. Life is already difficult as it is without mixing in all the emotions that come with infertility. This is not something that can be dealt with alone. I am blessed to not only have an understanding husband and family but to have wonderful Ladies who are always a keyboard away to listen to my woes. After a very emotional weekend, with so much pain and anger Its so great to have a wonderful support group ready to listen. Just wanted to mention incase I havent, Thank you for everything!!!!!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Jealousy
"competent and self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything. Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity." Robert Heinlein
I try so hard not to be THAT person who is always green with envy. I want to believe I am a self-confident person and that jealousy is below me. But unfortunately for me I do tend to turn into the green monster about... ehh I would say once a week. Now do not get me wrong, I LOVE my life, I have a wonderful husband a beautiful home with a puppy and a bunny rabbit whom I adore. I have a great family and although my career life could use a little tweaking, I have the ability to laugh it off and look to the future of things to come. The absolute one thing that always brings the monster out in me is woman who are pg (pregnant, better learn the lingo), have babies/children. The one thing I want in life and have not be able to succeed in is being a mother and making my husband a father. Please don't get me wrong, I don't release the green monster for EVERYONE who has children or is pg, just a select few, but I do always have that little twinge of jealousy whenever I hear of another pregnant woman or see a family toting around a bundle of joy.
I guess the reason for my quote today is a realization to myself that I am insecure. I have infertility. There I said it.
My wish for today is to learn to tame the green monster and no longer be insecure about infertility.
I try so hard not to be THAT person who is always green with envy. I want to believe I am a self-confident person and that jealousy is below me. But unfortunately for me I do tend to turn into the green monster about... ehh I would say once a week. Now do not get me wrong, I LOVE my life, I have a wonderful husband a beautiful home with a puppy and a bunny rabbit whom I adore. I have a great family and although my career life could use a little tweaking, I have the ability to laugh it off and look to the future of things to come. The absolute one thing that always brings the monster out in me is woman who are pg (pregnant, better learn the lingo), have babies/children. The one thing I want in life and have not be able to succeed in is being a mother and making my husband a father. Please don't get me wrong, I don't release the green monster for EVERYONE who has children or is pg, just a select few, but I do always have that little twinge of jealousy whenever I hear of another pregnant woman or see a family toting around a bundle of joy.
I guess the reason for my quote today is a realization to myself that I am insecure. I have infertility. There I said it.
My wish for today is to learn to tame the green monster and no longer be insecure about infertility.
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